Posted by messadivoce on November 5, 2005, at 19:37:38
In reply to Re: But it's time to face the truth, posted by daisym on November 2, 2005, at 0:21:42
<So perhaps, in time, you will be able to string their caring together and make it whole, inside yourself.>
You know, that's a really good point to ponder. Because when you put all their good qualities together, you get the perfect father that I've always wanted.
<It maybe that your dad is a great grandpa someday...and you'll find a way to connect with him then.>
Yeah, I think he will be a pretty great grandpa, actually. I think it will be really wonderful to see him interacting with my kids, and kind of difficult too.
<I think it is perfectly understandable to miss your therapist so much, especially as you approach your wedding.>Thanks, Daisy. I feel as though it is pretty unreasonable to feel the way I do, since it's been a year and a half, and for all practical purposes, I've "moved on". I still miss him every day, though, and I try to support myself the same way he supported me.
I just HATE HATE how vulnerable and needy I feel sometimes for male attention. How when I meet a really nice guy I wonder "why is he being so nice to me?" Even my fiance, who is so incredibly kind.
My T was one of those nice guys, and when I met him, I thought, "uh oh this could be trouble." And it was. My first instinct was to push him as far away as possible. That was my first instinct with my fiance too.
<I hope tomorrow is a brighter day.>
It's less dark, at least.
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