Posted by terrics on September 2, 2005, at 22:52:18
Hi, I think Poet said that she would read a post even if it is long. This is an update since last year. Actually only since Feb. when my job started the big harrassment cam'pain'. At first my idiot supervisor who used to be my friend before she got the promotion called me Feb 9 and told me not to come to work, but to show up at a meeting about me. I asked her why and she said that she did not know...the lying you know what. I became so upset I called my T. This was at 9pm. She is supposed to be available til 10pm. She is not good about returning calls. I got some pdoc instead who did not know me at all. I told her I was going to kill myself. She called the police while I was talking to her. They knocked on my door and I was confused. They took me to hospital and I stayed for 10 days involuntarily. Before all this my 'supervisor'.J... A.. was following me around. I worked in 4 different bldgs. I kept asking if for some reason unknown to me was I being fired? She said no. She never hinted that she was spying on me, and I could not figure out what was going on because I had not screwed anything up. Well, when we finally had the meeting the big shots at my job accused me of staggering, looking angry and a few other crazy things. I loose my balance and when I was much younger my doctor did a quick neuro check and told me not to worry. Others have noticed this and just asked me about it. This teacher 'the accuser' was accusing me of something?? When my husband came home Feb. 9th (he told me later) there were med. bottles all over the floor and the house looked like it was tossed. I do not remember anything. He looked for my body in the bedroom and basement and thought it might be in the woods. My neighbor came over and told him the cops took me to the hosp. The harrassment went on and on. They changed my position, they held back my checks, they stopped my direct deposit and on and on. The pressure was so severe that I slit my wrist. I do not think I wanted to die because I drove myself to the hosp. with the blood pouring all over me. They stitched me and again committed me. I will tell you why this all happened in a sec. The principal in the bldg in which I was now working put tremendous pressure on me. She was a big part of the harrassment. She listed some insignificant things which I could not keep up with. The reg nurse there used to take stuff home which is big time illegal. When the principal accused me of not keeping up with the attendance I told her the other nurse took it home and this was illegal and I had no intention of doing it. During all of this I kept cutting and cutting which is the way I usually handle stress. (not in visible areas) Then I cut in the crease of my arm and my friend took me to the hosp. and they commited me again. When the pressure became unbearable I took and overdose of lithium and was commited again. The strangest thing of all is that I had never been hospitalized nor attempted suicide before this started. 3 yrs ago I was in a day program because I was depressed. That is in my work file. I guess because I 'stagger' someone went into my file and THAT IS WHAT THE HARRASSMENT WAS ALL ABOUT. There was another meeting stating I might be fired for disciplinary reasons, but there weren't any. The day before that meeting the personnel director called me in sick. I called the woman who calls in subs. and asked her who called me in sick. She checked for me and told me it was the personnel director. 2 SICK DAYS AND I NEVER CALLED IN SICK. At the last meeeting I resigned because I had become so mentally and physically sick. I worked there for 7 yrs. I am afraid to find another job for fear this bizzare stuff could happen again. I am also afraid the former employer will black ball me because I am suing them. They are a very large organization. All this was due to a short period of depression 3 yrs ago. I realize this may be boring to read, but I am starting to feel alot better and I now can 'talk' about it. Pdoc does not want me on disability so now what? terrics Sorry if I bored you all.
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