Posted by orchid on August 15, 2005, at 19:54:55
Finally, I am realzing, that my life is really not about getting approval from others. Or even unconditional acceptance. Or for that matter great love from anyone.
For that matter, it is not even about approving myself or proving to myself my self worth.
It is just about living and experiencing as I please.. and having fun in ways that I like. There is no need to even judge myself, or give myself grades (much lesser trying to get grades from others), or critise myself, or try to fix myself..
All along, I mistakenly thought I was in love with people who were higher up than me.. Now I am realizing there really is no such thing as anyone being higher than me.. And there is no question of getting approval from anyone in my life.
And I don't even have to prove myself to others, or for that matter, prove myself to even my own eyes. I can just live as I please, do what I feel happy doing, talk to people I feel happy to talk to.
There is not really that much need for philosophy or psychology, or analysis etc.
I can be simple and just live. Without all the time analyzing and trying to be the best or good or anything.
poster:orchid
thread:542123
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