Posted by Daisym on July 27, 2005, at 19:50:05
In reply to argh ..., posted by Shortelise on July 27, 2005, at 13:21:38
It is a lot of money but...
We still have to pay when they are "off" or when they upset us and we "need" to call again (more money spent) etc. We pay the whole fee when we are late too. I like the idea of thinking of it as a bulk discount. And the reason the cost is so high is that these kinds of things are factored in. I think you are worrying about him too much here.
Can you ask yourself if this isn't something else? This is me projecting...are you actually making up for walking out? Do you need to do this so he doesn't have a black mark next to your name in your permanent record?
I think it is a lovely gesture but you should talk with him about it. Feels like a "gift" in some way.
As far as the crying in your bones, that is such a vivid imagine -- deep, deep sadness at your core. Do you have any idea why it occurs when you think about these things? Do you miss your therapist, so is it that wistful, lonely sadness? Or is the issues themselves?
I don't know how to wrap myself around you so that your bones feel held, but I'm trying. I hope this passes for you.
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