Posted by Dinah on July 26, 2005, at 8:12:55
In reply to Re: How are you , Daisy? » gardenergirl, posted by daisym on July 25, 2005, at 0:09:27
Daisy, love, the depression and stress are playing mind games with you. The conclusions you're drawing aren't logical, because you're too deep in the swirling vortex caused by the depression.
I've been there, so I can see this. You've been there, and you can see it in others (including me on occasion), but almost by definition it's harder to see it in yourself.
There are a few medications that are good for this kind of thinking. Risperdal helps me a LOT. If you can be honest with your pdoc, or if you prefer have your therapist be honest with your pdoc, she can help you.
Don't listen to what your brain is telling you. It's overwhelmed by despair, depression, and intense anxiety. It's lying to you about the relative pain hospitalization and suicide will bring to your loved ones. It's lying to you about being a burden, and about how best to handle that feeling.
I know it's hard not to rely on that same brain, when relying on the brain is what we do, right? We're logical and we get the job done. That means relying on the brain. But the brain gets tired too, Daisy.
Daisy, you've told me the same things in the past. You know you have. And you were right. Take another step back, and pretend you are listening to me tell you the things you're telling yourself. Read your post and pretend Falls or gg or I wrote it.
Let your therapist and pdoc help you as they think best.
Going in the hospital is not something anyone wakes up and decides would be a fun way to spend the day. But if you think it would be worse for your friends, your family, and yourself to be in the hospital than to be dead by suicide - well, just pretend *I* had said that.
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