Posted by Susan47 on July 19, 2005, at 21:20:35
In reply to Re: I hate my life.. **trigger** » pinkeye, posted by Dinah on July 19, 2005, at 18:21:53
Pretty much that's how I feel. I don't understand how on the surface things can be "good" in a person's life yet underneath there can be so much depressed feeling. There's so much inconsistency in life. It feels very lonely, sometimes, and overwhelming and sad and being rejected is just mind-boggling, it's too much to take. Sometimes I feel a bit better, Pinkeye, when I think about what this ex-T of mine is doing... not thinking about me one bit, of course not. And just carrying on with his life as usual. So if he's not thinking about me, why would I think about him? And that kind of rationale works sometimes, and makes me feel better for a while. Then I end up thinking, too, about how I really feel about him, about the wonderful emotions he unwittingly introduced me to, and I just want to scream. How can there be so much emotion with NO RELATIONSHIP? It's absolutely c*ck-eyed, stupid, even insane. It's no wonder it feels sometimes like I'm living a nightmare.
D'you feel any better, yet, Pinkeye? You have company, maybe not exactly the same, but I also feel overwhelmingly sad and angry at times, then I get so depressed it's unbelievable. But you'll come out of it again, Pinkeye, you will.. you always do, have you noticed?
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