Posted by B2chica on June 27, 2005, at 9:57:45
In reply to Re: tootriggered to write....**graphic triggers!** » B2chica, posted by Jazzed on June 24, 2005, at 16:55:18
thank you so much for sharing that with me jazzzed. i Really thought i was the only one. i just disappeared. my T said i dissociated cuz i remember him pushing me down on the floor and then remember pressure of him and then nothing, my next memory is i'm in my close leaving that house.and my girlfriend laughing and said 'that's just what you needed'. (she brought the guy specifically to have s@x with me) even though i told her no way, she left me down there with him, i even yelled out her name hoping she'd come back downstairs. the thing that makes is tough is both the guy and my girlfriend are dead, so i can't even talk to her or confront him. part of me is glad the other part angry.
> >>my next best friend led me into a situation where i was r@ped and she was oblivious (i'm still struggling with that term cuz i didn't fight at all, i freaking froze and was led into the situation a second time and was SA again...i still blame myself but there were times that i blamed her).
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> I guess when your fight or flight kicked in, yours was to "flight". I was reading about this last night because of when I was raped. I fought, and then didn't, just froze. From what I read, this is a really normal response, but causes a lot of shame. Please don't blame yourself, you wouldn't have walked into it knowingly. Blame your "friend", since she knew and led you into it. BTW, she was no friend.
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> ((((hugs))))
> Jazzy
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