Posted by Aphrodite on June 16, 2005, at 19:16:22
In reply to Continued, but with trigger, posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 18:56:15
> For the first time in ages, I was awake this morning at four am with SI urges.
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> Well, it's not the first time I was awake. That's been happening since I dropped the Depakote. My sleep pattern's back to what it used to be.
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> SI urges and temper tantrums used to be the only way my emotional self could speak, being so isolated.It definitely sounds like your emotional side went into full rebellion about being ignored and exiled. I'm not familiar with Depakote -- what is it, and how does it affect your sleep? Why don't you take it now -- sorry if I missed that part somewhere. Could you be going through a med readjustment in addition to readjusting to a strong rational side?
What does your T say about integrating those two parts so that they don't have totally contradicting agendas? I have tried integration for a long time now but with little success. Those splits are there for a reason, as I'm sure you know.
Is there any way to ask your T to throw your emotional side a lifeline when he sees that you are rationally strong? My T has me divided similarly, except more parts. The domineering side is a cynical one, and when that part is in full mode, he tells me to be quiet and that he only cares to speak for the wounded parts. He really advocates for those young, emotional parts, and I'm always so grateful because they cannot fight my cynic. And your emotional side can't compete with a jolly, excited intellectual Dinah.
Please take care, and call your T about those urges. Stay safe.
(((Dinah)))
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