Posted by happyflower on June 7, 2005, at 17:06:50
In reply to What is happening?? » happyflower, posted by pinkeye on June 7, 2005, at 15:13:45
I am just sick of NEEDING therapy. This month I can only see my T every 2 weeks instead of weekly. This week I don't get to see him, in fact today is the day I would normally see him. I just hate feeling like I HAVE to go to therapy or my week just doesn't feel right. He sees most of his clients every 2 weeks and they are doing okay. Why can't I suck it up and white nuckle it? I think I am getting addicted to therapy or something and I don't like the dependacy feelings. I want to call him just to get reaccurance that everything is okay, tell me I am okay but I don't want to call, I don't want to depend on him. He is not my friend, he is like an imaginary friend.(not real)Why am I depending on him? Why am I getting myself so attached to him when he isn't "anything". I don't see him missing me when I am not there, I bet he doesn't even think about me. A real friend would call, but he isn't a friend, I know that. Why should I give a sh#t what he thinks, when I am nobody to him. Why do I waste my time and put my energy into someone who won't be there for me in the future? Why do I tell him anything? He is probably just rolling his eyes secretly thinking what a nut he is talking to. She just needs to get over it already. I think he is just sick of me, because he could of seen me this week today, but he lied to me about his schedule. I could of seen him 3 times this month, not 2, I don't know why he lied to me. Maybe he just wants some relief from me. But I hate the feeling like I NEED therapy in my life. I hate the feeling like I NEED him to help me. I hate hate hate NEEDING anything. Why can't I just live in peace?
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