Posted by B2chica on May 17, 2005, at 12:20:31
In reply to Re: it's out and i feel worse. ****BIG TRIGGER**** » B2chica, posted by 10derHeart on May 17, 2005, at 11:13:07
thanx (with tears).
i think i'm going back in(hosp). My T was very adamit about me going in last night. i went back and forth a hundred times. my hubby said he'd support me either way.finally around 9 i decided i should go but it was so late that i just took a couple pills and went to sleep.it comes in waves. one minute i'm unsteady but can 'handle' what's out and who i am, next i'm ready to take every last pill i have and then some. i went to get refill's night before last and got a couple refills on pills i don't even use anymore. i'm scaring myself. i can't concentrate at work. i miss my T already.
i just want all these suicidal feelings to GO AWAY!!!!!!
i'm going home to decide for sure and to pack a little bag. if i decide to try to 'tough it out'-i'll post tomorrow.otherwise, you know where i'll be till friday.
b2c.
> Well, I'll accept your thanks ONLY if you let me say (like you can really stop a Babbler froim babbling... ;-)) that the ONLY part of your secrets that are *sick* is whatever was inside OTHER people - other SICK, older kids hurting you. Yes - they were ill, disturbed, wrong...whatever words you like.
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> You stay safe and let your husband and T. take care of you. Sounds like you already are, and that's very encouraging.
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