Posted by Shortelise on May 13, 2005, at 1:17:20
I wish I understood.Events trigger depression. Kind of pulls the rug out from under me. Whump, down I go. Sometimes it's just sadness for a day, other times it gets me, and it's got me this time.
I don't know why. Is it chemical? Is it habit? Is it a combination of both? I want to pace, pace, pace. Or sit and rock. Someone stole my rocking chair from my front porch. There is a particularly hot place in hell for that person.
I have let my house get in such a mess. It's been spiralling downward for weeks, though my mood has been fine. Now everywhere I look I see just a big, bigger biggest mess and what I want is to gaze on the clean serenity of a Zen garden.
Lots of us here are asking for help just now, and right at the moment I can't do much, so I do understand if others are finding themselves in the same space. But if you have some ideas about this, I'd sure appreciate it. I don't need housekeeping advice, thanks, but I do wonder if anyone has any ideas about why this happens. What these cycles are.
I did phone my T and we talked and he pointed out how these things are transitory, they are part of a continuum. I said I'd like to talk with him about that when I see him. But I am trying to hold on tothat. It's the "this too shall pass" thing, I think, but there may be more to it than that.
Thanks very much.
ShortE
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