Posted by pinkeye on May 8, 2005, at 18:10:25
In reply to Re: I don't have to pretend anything here, posted by happyflower on May 8, 2005, at 17:20:53
Thanks Happy Flower. I have been understanding things a lot lately.. Actually I think I have a pattern of thinking - when things get emotionally very hard, I start thinking a lot..All these things about parents and abuse and leaving my ex T and all this stuff has been very hard for me..and I have to take some more important decisions in life - like returning back to my country, and I have been crying on and off a lot, and I am thinking I am just substituting my brain for my heart right now.. I do that a lot.. my brain is lot stronger than my heart, and I kind of try to be logically very strong, when my emotions are too overwhelming.. Sometimes the speed of my thoughts is unbearable for me.. I used to think it was a good thing before, now I am realizing that I am actually supressing my emotions with that speed.
It is very interesting to me to observe myself nowadys..Like I am mirroring myself or something a lot. I don't know if it is good or bad, but sometimes it is very scary.
Regarding the name, I don't know why I chose the name.. I wanted something with pink - and I think I thought something about redeye flights also at that time, and I combined the too. I think I initially tried something else, and that yahoo id was already taken. It doesn't have any signifcance.
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