Posted by Susan47 on April 19, 2005, at 9:48:54
In reply to YES. Always., posted by daisym on April 19, 2005, at 2:05:46
I remember wearing this pair of heels I really love, they have laces on them and they look a bit country. And I have these red heels, (I have to go out shoe shopping as soon as I have an income again, this is awful, I need CLOTHES).
But my T would look at my shoes frequently, but never made any comment on them. He never commented on anything I wore or any way I looked, I would have to ask, as in, is my hair okay? (just removed my hat). I would be frightened that I'd gone overboard, you know because I like to dress up, it's just the way I am, and sometimes my style of dress was a bit out there. And he would kind of look but not say anything. And I'd be thinking, does he think I'm too old to be wearing this but he's just not saying? Because my MIL wears the most revealing clothes and she's in her late seventies and should NOT be dressing the way she does, she's a wreck and it's embarrassing, you know, to see people with so little dignity ... and I was always terribly afraid I had no dignity, because I really wanted him to find me nice to look at, not embarrassing. It was crushing to never know. Just crushing. Because he would look, you know, and I never ever knew what was going through the mind.
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