Posted by fallsfall on March 8, 2005, at 20:11:26
In reply to Re: You have to change to be acceptable » fallsfall, posted by pinkeye on March 8, 2005, at 14:35:38
Hi Pinkeye,
Your point that different life circumstances permit different lifestyles is a valid one. And I agree that the ability to work is not required to be an "acceptable human being".
I guess that my issue is that if I am "disabled" then the government will give me money to live on. I feel like I should be living up to my potential - and everyone tells me how capable I am. Accepting disability money doesn't feel like living up to my potential. Even accepting an inheritance and living off of that doesn't feel like living up to my potential. I guess I have money issues... It should be that if I were independently wealthy that I should be able to feel that I'm living up to my potential by volunteering. But I think that I would feel like I should be making money to pass on to my children.........
Perhaps if I decide that I *can't* work, that would require me to admit that I am not a "capable" person. I'm just not ready to give up on that yet. But the road to being "capable" seems impossibly hard.
I long ago gave up the notion that I need to be perfect. At this point I would be happy to be able to simply support myself.
I guess the problem is that *I* don't feel that I am acceptable.
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