Posted by gardenergirl on March 1, 2005, at 7:02:07
In reply to Re: More Freud stuff ...and new insight ***trigger****, posted by Speaker on February 27, 2005, at 16:55:19
> I'm so glad you are connecting with your T and trust him enough to talk about the big S word!
Thanks, it feels surprisingly good.
> My father was just like your..."If God wanted holes in your head he would have put them there". My parents never went to church except for weddings so I also knew that had nothing to do with his attitude. I always thought it was a control issue as he was a very in charge kind of guy...but a really good dad otherwise.
Yeah, my mom always said it was due to his religious beliefs, but I never heard him ever talk about religion. Maybe he did to her, but I doubt it given their different backgrounds and lack of communication skills. But who knows?
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> I was also raped (I've never even typed that or talked about that yet...seems odd to see that in print)and I gained weight very consiously wanting to but unattractive.Wow, are you okay after having written this? (((Marie))) I remember very clearly the first time I acknowledged what happened as rape. It was a date-like scenario, so I had lots of doubts and guilt (still do when I am letting my emotions rule). I also remember a lovely girl saying to me with a sad smile after I told her, "welcome to the club" and hugging me. It's sad that anyone else ever has to "qualify for membership", but it is helpful to know that others understand personally. (Please know she was not being at all insensitive. It's hard to convey that moment in print.)
>I dealt with csa and in high school I also gained weight for the same reason. For me when I did have children it was like I was so busy that I lost the weight and busy enough I just set aside my issues. You never know children might be a break from some of this for you :). I always say if denial works go for it as it never lasts long enough.
Hmmm, now if only I could get pregnant in new and mysterious ways, since the current method is not working well, mostly for lack of trying. :-/
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> It sounds like you are making some great progress and I'm so glad for you! You make me miss my old T as I had a very open relationship with him too.
> Keep up the good work....blessings!
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> MarieThanks for your post. I'm grateful for the support.
gg
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