Posted by Blossom on February 18, 2005, at 19:58:56
In reply to Re: relationship » Blossom, posted by Shortelise on February 18, 2005, at 19:20:15
I dunno. I guess I felt at risk before, but after this week, don't feel so much so. Just sort of...confused and afraid about what to do. I do feel that knowing so much about him is not a good thing because it is going to make it so painful for me to end this relationship, which inevitably needs to happen, and probably, the sooner the better, because it's only going to get harder. I was going to bring it up to him this week, and then I sort of chickened out. I did tell him that I have passed the point where terminating therapy will get easier because of the kind of relationship that I have with him. I wonder if he realizes that he's making it harder. I wonder if it's getting harder for him. Surely he will experience pain too when this relationship ends if he keeps sharing so much with me.
Deep down, just like a lot of us here, I've formed this bond with my therapist, and now, I can't bring myself to say goodbye. How can I get the courage to do this???
Does that make sense or make things more clear? I guess I'm just pulled in two different directions emotionally. I just wish that I could be friends with him (and his family) and not end this relationship. But I guess that can't happen.
Blossom
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