Posted by messadivoce on February 15, 2005, at 14:39:58
In reply to A Bombshell, posted by messadivoce on February 14, 2005, at 23:58:31
I decided to call the health center and try to talk to someone--I wasn't going to wait for them to call me. I spoke with the lady who was brought in to supervise this change, and she was very nice. She told me that this sudden decision was the end of a 2 year process that suddenly came to an end. She made it sound like my T had the option of staying and providing therapy, but that doesn't sound like what my T told me on the phone yesterday. I was able to be reasonable to her b/c she was NOT the one who made this decision.
Apparently this was very unexpected for everyone, and beyond that the details are fuzzy. She promised to contact me later today or tomorrow when she knows more.
So who's giving me the real story here? Could my T have stayed, and if so, why didn't she? I would tend to trust her more, but right now I just don't know. I'm trying not to freak out until I get more details, but I just can't stop crying.
I don't want to end up caught in the middle--between student life or human resources, and my T, who I trust more than this bureaucratic mess. I want to be loyal to my T, but at the same time, I need to know why she left.
I'm trying to go to work, to class, to keep myself together. I went to work this morning, but I felt so terrible I had to leave. I slept for awhile. I just feel so sick, so weary, so incredibly heartsore. This feels so much worse than when I lost my first T. I had time to grieve with and for him, to talk about it. This time I don't even have that.
I have 90 minutes to pull myself together and eat lunch before my next class. Thank you all so much for your support. You guys have been truly phenominal. Thank you.
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