Posted by cubic_me on February 10, 2005, at 17:38:52
In reply to Re: I don't know where I am any more » sunny10, posted by cubic_me on February 10, 2005, at 17:14:34
So yesterday I went to group. There were only four of us and the facilitator there. Later on in the session I mentioned how I would like some kind of professional opinion about whether group was right for me, but that it was hard to get because of the restrictions on talking to the group leader and my old T. The grp leader said that she couldn't give me any opinion anyway, as I know better than her whether it is working for me (ok, I know that, but I meant that I would like to talk to someone about my feelings about group - she didn't seem to get that). The rest of the group seemed to think that I was complaining that we could not see other group members outside of groups (I don't know where they got that from, I must have phrased what I said badly), I certainly don't want to see any of them outside group. Even though I said that the system felt isolating, they suceeded in making me feel even more isolated.
We were discussing how we felt while we were in group, the others said that it made them feel calmer/listened to/relaxed etc. I said that I felt worse when I am in group to when I am outside it (I didn't tell them I felt like slashing my legs from top to bottom). I know we are all different, but the same group seems to be having exactly the opposite effect on me than them.
My boyfriend feels a little bit jelous that I am having therapy and he is not (he is not entitled to it free any more and can't afford it), and I feel guilty for group not working for me when he would relish having the experience. I wish I could just swap him in for me in next week's session!
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