Posted by mair on January 26, 2005, at 16:03:58
In reply to Re: My therapist joined me here at Babble today., posted by Daisym on January 25, 2005, at 21:32:10
I think it's pretty neat that your T suggested an on-line group. When I first started talking to my T about Babble she had a kneejerk bad reaction to it. (as did my husband) I think for her it was bred of being someone who doesn't much use computers, and I think I was the first patient she had who used the internet for on-line support. After awhile, she came to understand that internet relationships could be every bit as real as other relationships and analyzing my reactions to things here was as valuable an exercise as processing my irl relationships, which I don't tend to bring up with her much. To her, the downside of participation is that certain buttons get pushed here, so being here can be upsetting to me, and that I sometimes use the Board to distill issues, so that by the time I talk to her about them, they've been stripped of emotional content. I think she'd prefer the unexpurgated versions.
In terms of your question about worrying about whether she's going to jettison me, I'm not sure when I stopped worrying about that although it did go on for a long time. I think we just talked about it alot over a long period of time. I spent parts of many sessions trying to convince her that she would be infinitely better off if she didn't keep trying to treat me, and she spent parts of alot of sessions trying to convince me that she she could see improvements where I couldn't and that she wasn't looking for a way out. Of course, alot of my thinking that way is a projection of how I'm feeling about myself. If I'm feeling like I'm never going to get anywhere with therapy, I do sometimes start thinking that she must be getting incredibly frustrated with me or bored or whatever and some of those insecurities do resurface.
Mair
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