Posted by alexandra_k on January 24, 2005, at 23:28:11
In reply to Re: t2 and the light » alexandra_k, posted by Dinah on January 24, 2005, at 22:45:17
Oh, I think I hear you. Don't worry, I don't tell people I feel all empty and alone at bad times. I don't say that. There isn't any point because there isn't anything they can do. And, well, there isn't a good time to say it anyway and so I suppose it doesn't get said. But I clearly am upset. Not feeling too good. Inconsolable. They notice. I don't have to tell them. I also don't tell people everything about my emotions. I realise most of them are innapropriate anyways.
But I think one day I would like to be able to be honest. Because it is not a problem with them, it is a problem with me. They need to realise that or they won't last long anyways. But then when they realise what a problem with me it is then they probably won't last long either.
I should just be alone.
Maybe not forever.
But for a while.
Have a lot to sort out within myself.
I JUST WANT A PROPER THERAPIST.
I don't mean to devalue her
She is doing good
But I don't have much faith in her ability
I don't know...;
I don't want to be doing this with her.
But the floodgates have opened.Bugger
Bugger> I don't always feel love, but I try to always *do* love. (It took my therapist ages to convince me that doing love is more important than feeling love. Of course, the payback is in the feeling love, not the doing, so I feel a bit shortchanged sometimes.)
But what if sometimes you really feel ill.
I don't know.
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