Posted by JenStar on October 18, 2004, at 22:19:59
In reply to Not so ridiculous anymore, posted by Dinah on October 18, 2004, at 9:20:24
Dinah,
this may be totally off base, and I apologize if I am completely mis-reading the situation. But it sounds like you're just about to break -- your posts read to me like someone who is stretched way too thin and just can't do it anymore.It sounds ALMOST like you might want the hospital less for the outright-mental-services it might provide and more for the get-me-away-from-this-mess-that-is-my-life service that it would concurrently provide.
If that is so (and again, I apologize mightily if I am wrong about this!) are there things you can do to simplify your life for the long term that might allow you to stay away from the hospital? I'm not saying that hospital = bad. If you need it, you should do it. But maybe there are other ways to get the calm you need?
I haven't read all the posts so I don't know exactly all the details, but maybe it's time to put you first. If your parents are being pains, screw them (not literally.) Maybe it's time to cut some strings, sort of, the strings that tie you to great stress and situations that you can't control.
You seem to take on tremendous burdens, and then beat yourself up when you can't fix the un-fixable.
Of COURSE it's OK to see another therapist! Do what you need to provide peace for yourself. Your therapist WANTS you to be healthy and happy and if that means seeing someone else right now, do it! (Even if he didn't want to see you happy for some strange nefarious reasons...you should still look after YOU.)
Anyway, I'm sorry if that sounded like a lecture; it wasn't meant to be. I hope all goes well with you. I wish you all the best and truly, truly hope that you feel better soon!
JenStar
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