Posted by Skittles on October 13, 2004, at 13:29:51
In reply to envy, depression and hopelessness, posted by crushedout on October 13, 2004, at 11:59:16
I am so sorry that you are feeling lost. But please know that you are not alone. WE are here for you and we care about how you are doing.
I think I might understand a little bit about the envy you feel. I've been there, especially when I was younger. As I've aged, I've come to realize that a lot of what I'd envied in other people was just a facade. Yes, there were aspects of these people's lives that I wanted, but they all had problems just like me. There is NOBODY out there with a *perfect* life. If someone tells you differently, they are lying (probably out of self-protection). From the outside, my life probably looks really great to people - I'm married to a man who loves me dearly, I live in a big house, I don't have to work, I get to spend a lot time with my family. But here's the *real deal* - marriage is a LOT of work and husbands are very often like children. My big house is filthy b/c I don't have the energy to clean it. I'm bored out of my mind and am nervous about looking for a job b/c I don't want it to interfere with therapy and I don't think I'm very marketable. My parents STILL emotionally abuse me, I have a dear cousin who is drug addicted and has been missing for months, and in truth, the family just doesn't get along all that well.
I'm not meaning to hijack and make it about me. I just wanted to help you see that things aren't always what the seem from the outside. I will be thinking about you. Keep posting here and let us support you b/c we care about you!
poster:Skittles
thread:402657
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