Posted by Aphrodite on September 23, 2004, at 10:05:35
Last night was my last visit with my T until the beginning of Oct. He wanted to go through self-soothing activities to help me while he was gone because I have recently taken such a downward turn. I was afraid to do anything that would open me up, and I asked to keep it light. We spent the time chatting and bonding, and he shared a lot. It was very nice and not exposing. As he parted, he handed me a note. One part was addressed to the adult me, the other to the little girl. To the little girl, he wrote reassurances that he will be back and will still want to help her, and to the adult he wrote a plea to be wise and bring her back. He also wrote an emergency number. He gave me the name and number of *his* T, and told me not to use the therapist who would be covering for him, that his T was the one who knew my situation. I can't fathom calling her, but the gesture was nice even if it is a little weird.
He expressed his fear that I had my guard up so much that I will think once again I don't need to be there. I certainly had my guard up -- I didn't want him to see how hard it's going to be without him.
I'm counting on you guys to help me through. Sob, sob.
poster:Aphrodite
thread:394080
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