Posted by Susan47 on September 8, 2004, at 23:01:40
In reply to Re: I should be at my appointment right now . . . » Aphrodite, posted by fallsfall on September 8, 2004, at 20:33:37
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> I am trying to learn that I don't have to be perfect/strong/omnipotent to be acceptable (i.e. "good"). But the only way I can learn this is to be imperfect/weak/fallible and have people still accept me. If I run away every time I am imperfect/weak/fallible then, even if they *do* still accept me, I will never *know* that they do. So in order for me to learn this thing, I do need to face people after I have "failed", and that takes enormous faith that those people "won't" (i.e. shouldn't) reject me. I guess that I believe/hope that my therapist is one of the most likely people in the world to NOT reject me for being imperfect/weak/fallible. So, it seems safer to try this little experiment with him than with random other people. But, of course, it doesn't seem really safe even with him. I think that the only reason I can give him the chance to prove that it is safe with him is because I *do* believe intellectually that it *is* safe. And my intellectual side has to carry my emotional side through so that my emotional side can *experience* that it is safe. I don't know if this is similar to what you experience...
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I thought that what you're saying is exciting and encouraging for a lot of people. Thanks!
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