Posted by Susan47 on August 21, 2004, at 15:49:45
In reply to Re: Life is falling apart again » Susan47, posted by shortelise on August 21, 2004, at 13:10:08
Shortelise, Your momma sounds a lot like both my parents, I really really feel for you. And I'm trying desperately not to hand that down to my own children. I suspect I've already given it to my oldest, who's 20. I love him so much but it hurts hurts hurts knowing I handed much of my paint right along. I'm trying so hard not to do that again. Self-awareness is the most difficult job I've ever had, but it's also rewarding. I don't think it hurts any more than not being aware, in any case.
About knowing stuff? I know nothing. I only feel and try to make sense of that. Like all of us I suspect. Okay. Enough melodrama.. well maybe not. Here goes. I just have to say it or I'm going to call CW's machine all day and use up all its' space and his patience. Again. I love that man he's beautiful I feel like he's a tender spirit I want to touch and be close to him and put my cheek against his and just hold it there. (We're talking face, don't anybody be a smart-*** okay). Sorry. Aaaaah. I hurt. How is it possible that the space in your chest where your heart is, can physically hurt when you're in emotional pain? It isn't right. Thanks for reading. Ack. Omigod it's a good thing I have a busy day. I have to be saved from myself.
Did anyone see the movie "Thirteen"? It was excellent. I thought. Anybody else have any opinions?
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