Posted by lucy stone on August 20, 2004, at 14:30:14
In reply to Re: Life is falling apart again, posted by Susan47 on August 20, 2004, at 13:25:25
> I started crying reading your post. Thanks for caring. I just miss my ex-therapist so much, can't afford to see him or anyone else
Is there any way you can access the care you need? I know it is really, really hard to find affordable mental health care, but is there a clinic or somewhere you can go?
(he rejected me anyway, I'm too much of a mess)
Susan, he didn't reject you because you are a mess. If he did reject you he did for his own reasons and not because of you.
and I want to die.
Do you want to die or do you want the pain the stop? Those are two very different things. Even if your life is very hard right now your children need you. Can you see all the good you bring to their lives? You need to live for them even if you can't see that you need to live for you right now.
I'm beginning to understand SI and that really scares me but I need to stay sane. I'm scared of living and I'm whining. Sorry.
You don't sound whiny to me and you have nothing to be sorry for. Lots and lots of us have been where you are right now. We care about you and want to find joy in your life again.
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