Posted by Klokka on August 14, 2004, at 12:58:06
In reply to TOV club: question for fist session back, posted by gardenergirl on August 14, 2004, at 7:52:51
Maybe you can make a list of everything you want to address and give it to him so he has some idea, and then just start with whatever seems more pressing at the moment?
I'm a bit uncertain as to how I'm going to approach the first session back, because he's only been away once when it wasn't just for a week (which I'm somewhat used to because we only met every other week for the first few months,) and that one time wasn't left up to me. He ended up asking a bunch of weird questions and there wasn't really a chance to address anything. After that, of course, I freaked out and ended up having to write about what happened... he said it was very honest and see? something came of the "pointless session" after all. That sure encouraged honesty, alright. ;)
There will definitely be a lot to address. The pile has been building since before he left, really! Before our last session, a lot of very painful stuff came up but I didn't want to address it then, so I wrote it down and gave the papers to him so that I might be forced to deal with it in September - I know I'd otherwise just try and forget all about it. We actually did skim over one of the topics I wrote about, but only because it was either that or play Monopoly. :) That still needs to come up, but can probably wait a while also.
I think the priority will probably be to talk about finding that post of his, because it was so bizarre, such a shock, and I'm sure will make me act somewhat differently. I don't know how I'm going to bring this up. Will probably just say "By the way, I came across something really weird online..." and be done with it: even if I want to chicken out after that point, I won't be allowed to!
Apart from that, as my 17th birthday is coming up, I've been thinking more about my 18th and therefore when I'll have to stop seeing my pdoc. I want to figure out a little bit of how that's going to be handled, and whether I need to find another pdoc on my own or if I'll be given a referral. I start college soon, and in doing so left a high school where the teachers felt almost like family to me, so undoubtedly there's going to be issues around that. Plus I keep thinking about moving out, and that's got me pretty conflicted, too. This kind of relates to the post I found of his, but lately I've been worried to death that nobody who really cares will really stick around, and I guess I should bring that up too.
As far as practical stuff goes, if I can judge by experience my SAD should be kicking in soon (maybe is starting to already?) and, if that does happen, we'll be trying to figure out what to do about it. There's light therapy, which sounds good but is expensive. Getting it covered by insurance without causing a problem with my parents is going to be more than a little tricky, but we'll have to try and work something out. Then there's the possibility of medication. I'm willing to try again but still have some reservations...
To make this even nastier, we start meeting only every other week after the break, unless I can change my schedule to free up Tuesday afternoons too/instead of Fridays. I don't know how this is going to work at all! As for getting everything out there so it is addressed, I'm thinking that I will end up writing a list and leaving it there.
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