Posted by Angela2 on August 10, 2004, at 11:40:59
Thanks to my therapist. We've been working on things, mainly how to handle school in the fall, but sometimes issues with my identity comes up. She tells me that I have an unclear grasp on who I am. A lot of my problems in the past have sprung from this: My unsuccessful internship, my unsuccessful major, my unsuccessful attempts to be an actress. No seriously, It is my secret dream to be an actress. But when i was little someone encouraged me a little to optimistically to try it and it turned out to be a disaster. Anyway...Now its like I'm trying to prove to her (my t) that I really do know who I am and there is nothing wrong with me identity wise.
So...one thing that bothers me right now is this situation I'm in with this art class I'm taking. I started to think that it was a great career choice for me because I'm shy, drawing doesn't take much social interaction. And sometimes I like to draw. But my therapist is like: "no, you aren't an artist" becuase I don't draw all the time, I'm not obsessed with drawing, I don't think of myself as an artist, etc.
Well, I'm taking this art clas and I've moved on to acryllics because my friend told me that it was how she makes her drawings with color. But I have to pay all this money for paint and brushes. So I don't want to. Too expensive. And I'm afraid to say anything to anyone about it because I'm afraid I'll sound inexperienced. Which maybe I am. And maybe thats not so bad. but if I were a real artist wouldn't I just buy them?
If anyone else has gone through this or if anyone else knows what I mean or has a way to help please reply to this post.
Angela
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