Posted by Camille Dumont on May 7, 2004, at 11:06:34
In reply to Re: How'd it go? (nm) » Camille Dumont, posted by Dinah on May 7, 2004, at 4:33:39
Ok, better than a shrink, better than my T, I saw this guy 4 hours, answered a few true or false, told him what I saw in inkblots and WOAH! Did he nail the whole mental process / motivation / psychological problems right on!
I was totally surprised at how well those things describe me. Talk about a perceptive pdoc. He even showed me the MMPI graph thing to show me the scales that I got high on and the ones I got low on.
I also got good news in that the depression doesn't seem to be the primary problem in that its not "I'm depressed because of whatever chemical imbalance and therefore it reflects itself on my personality" but rather that my personality is mainly schizoid because those are the types of defense mechanisms that work for me but in then they fail ... thus making me depressed. This would suggest that the solution will be more to change the personality rather than just medicate and once that is fixed, I would be able to go without meds.
The other good news : I'm not psychotic. Apparently ppl with the kind of pd I have, when under stress tend to have psychotic-like symptoms such as visual hallucinations and depersonalization, which would explain alot about the visual illusions ... as if I'm perhaps trying to project the world I'm escaping to into the real world (if that makes any sense) and therefore confirms my suspicion that I definately DO NOT need antipsychotics ... which in fact didn't do anything to alleviate the illusions.
So in retrospective : bloody expensive ... C$700 ... hopefully the insurance will cover a part of that but it did help ALOT as in I now undersand why I do certain things ... hopefully this will help me change the way I interact with others.
poster:Camille Dumont
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