Posted by smokeymadison on April 30, 2004, at 22:53:33
In reply to A good therapist fit, posted by Dinah on April 29, 2004, at 9:34:49
i wound up with a therapist who had a lot of experience with OCD and who was a Christian. i choose to see him because of my OCD and the fact that i am struggling very hard with my spirituality. i am torn btw Christianity and Buddhism. but i want to make Christianity work b/c that was how i was raised and it is impossible for me to totally do away with it. i wish that i could, but i can't. so a Christian therapist could help me figure things out.
to me he seems rather aloof and he sets firm boundaries, which is totally opposite my old therapist. so that is good, i guess, b/c my old T was overbearing in sympathy. i left my sessions feeling more sorry for myself than when i went in to it. anyway, my T seems aloof, but underneath i know he really cares. he has told me that he has fasted and prays for me. he puts up with midnight calls once in a while. he keeps them short but sweet.
once in a while my anxiety gets hold and i am terrified that he doesn't care, and that he will drop me if i get worse. he has already threatened to quit seeing me if i drink and don't take my meds. then i often hold things back from him in fear that he will reject me. so i guess i wish that he showed a little more emotional concern than he does. then i could open up more comfortably. is it right for him to use my fear of his rejection to make me get well? that seems to be reality. he talks of how i am an investment for his and God's time. that he invests so much b/c he sees potential. but what if he stops seeing potential? then what? i am getting more and more anxious writing this. help!
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