Depressed- it's time to give up

Posted by Poet on April 29, 2004, at 11:15:21

I've been crying non stop all morning. Monday, we moved into our new house, yesterday I came back to work and was forced to resign my job. Today I came in and all my stuff was packed in a box. I'll get paid for two weeks because I gave written notice.
The job wasn't working out from the start, I knew that, but it took me five years to get it. I talked to my therapist for an hour last night that this has triggered my intense fears of abandonment and rejection. No one has ever wanted me, no one ever will. My husband doesn't need me, I'm useless, now I can't even help pay the mortgage.

I see her at 4:30, but I don't feel like going. I just want to binge and binge until I burst, purge and binge again. Maybe I'll choke to death, that would solve everything.
I'm so tired from crying and I haven't slept in two days. I wish I could just lay down and not wake up again.
Poet

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