Posted by B2chica on April 26, 2004, at 14:51:56
Therapy is new for me and i don't think i'm adjusting well. To begin with i have MAJOR trust issues and have had three visits and only talking about surface stuff, but he was ready to jump right in the first day. Every time we've meet since, i think about things i need to say- then when i get there i don't want to say them i feel strong enough to handle them on my own. Then when our session is done, typically sometime that night or the next day i have an "episode"-crying/screaming and anger all mixed together, i know it's cuz i feel uncomfortable with the things i did say in the session (although what i've said really isn't that telling, but it is more than i would tell anyone after seeing them three times. Then it starts all over again...
Also, i think/analyze things alot and during the week i think about past stuff, recently i've had quite a few disturbing memories come to me, i know eventually i need to talk about them but i can't get them out...at times i yell out for them to go away i feel their so bad, and other times i look at others and think my troubles are NOTHING compared to others, it is then that i feel the strength to not talk in session, the strength to know i can push it down again.
Heeeeelp!
i'm driving myself bonkers...if i keep at this i guarantee i will be back in the hospital for sure.
Any advice welcome.
B2c.
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thread:340261
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