Posted by crushedout on April 19, 2004, at 22:56:35
In reply to Re: everything went fine » crushedout, posted by fallsfall on April 19, 2004, at 21:37:04
I guess I'm feeling like I want to tell Ellen the stuff I told the other T today, and I'm hoping that telling T2 will give me the courage to tell Ellen. I have the feeling that if I can just be open with Ellen about my feelings for her -- I mean, not just telling her I have feelings, but really *talking* about them, as much as I need to -- that Ellen and I can work things out. And somehow having told T2 my feelings makes me think it might be easier to finally really tell Ellen. The problem is that I've thought I'd worked up the courage to do it before, and I always chicken out.
T2 said she thought Ellen and I had reached an impasse (I agreed) and suggested that Ellen and I go to a consultation *together*. I feel scared to bring up that subject. That seems really weird. But it's an interesting idea.
It's good to know that T2 is there if things don't work the way I want them to with Ellen. She seemed like she could be realy good. And it was such a relief to talk to someone who was likeable and caring but who I don't feel in love with. If I do ever decide to start therapy with her, though, we're going to have to come up with a strategy for heading my crush off at the pass, because I don't want this to happen this way again.
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