Posted by EscherDementian on March 12, 2004, at 5:09:19
In reply to Re: Body Memories » EscherDementian, posted by gardenergirl on March 2, 2004, at 20:37:13
Thanks again, gg ~ for the research and references.
You are awesome.
Will keep you all posted... so far i think they have slowed down a bit from daily, 24/7.
The part of the therapy that really amazed me was instruction from my pdoc, the EMDR therapist
AND the ND to: "WRITE. Write it in language. Describe the moment's physical feeling, NOW."
i didn't do that at first... i was panicked & looking for the pain prevention, or else intellectualizing the moment in ink, but when i ACTUALLY experienced IT in "Now Time" IN LANGUAGE what i have not been able to, (even as it was happening as an infant or child : (dissociation)) the most amazing thing happened! It dispersed. Just dissolved. Like a feeling of 'uplifting'. And each of the location/events that i have successfully dispelled has not returned.wow. This is an amazing thing. i have each of the 3 specialist's brief explanations for why this works this way (~you can probably guess), and i still don't understand the actual mechanisms in "body memories" from abuse dissociation - decades after the actual trauma was incurred, but.... wow. *WHEW*
It's still really tough. And painful & scary. There's still more coming... but am so grateful that i survived to see the day(s) to heal this.
Will tell you more in detail if you're interested?
The choking/throat chakra part of the experience actually has a parallel to the 'Christ expelling demons' description. *boggle*And i haven't felt so 'living in my body' for decades. i can actually -feel-, Now.
Thanx' for hanging in there with me,
Escher
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