Posted by fallsfall on February 19, 2004, at 7:59:39
In reply to Crappy, crappy week (confusing, long rant), posted by gardenergirl on February 19, 2004, at 0:14:28
Oh, GardenerGirl,
Can I give you a long hug? (((((((GardenerGirl)))))))
I am so impressed with how much insight you have into yourself. You are trying so hard to find a way to do what you have to do - keeping your limits in mind. I'm so impressed that you know your limits and accept them so well.
Please remember to love yourself. We love you. You have so much to give to the world (both as a person and as a therapist).
It must be hard to care so much about your clients. But each of us are praying that our own therapist cares 1/10 as much for us as you do for your clients. I have never been able to understand how therapists can truly let their clients live their own lives and make their own mistakes without feeling like they have to "save/fix" everything. I think that watching a client in pain must be so, so hard.
I'm a crier. I cry in therapy all the time. I know that I wouldn't like it if I did that in my "work" world, though. I always want to be in control - of everything and of myself. At least you are in a unique situation where everyone you deal with understands these "emotion" things. It sounds to me like you ARE doing hard work in therapy - and that is GOING to color the way you see the rest of your world. I would guess (and I have no way of knowing), that when the faculty sees you struggling with a personal issue, that they are proud of you for facing the issue and proud of the way that you are pushing on in spite of the issue. Just my guess.
The lady who can't figure out about your internship is just plain dense. Write her a note - in 14 point font - 4 sentances: I am not going to do an accredited internship in 2004-2005 (or whenever it is). I am going to do a LOCAL non-accredited internship. I will be qualified to do this because I will have proposed my disertation by (date?). Therefore, I do NOT need to participate in the Match program now or next year. Give a copy to her (read it to her?) and also give a copy to someone else (her boss? your advisor?) who can help explain this to her. You don't need this aggravation right now (and doing the above might let you release some of your anger...).
Eat some ice cream. Take a bubble bath. Get a massage. Color with crayons. Swing on swings (the kind with long chains). Do something nice for yourself.
And, you know, you DO have a therapist who you could call if things are feeling really overwhelming.
Take care of yourself.
Falls.
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