Posted by tabitha on January 6, 2004, at 23:09:39
I just had my first session after the 2-week break. During the break I was feeling pretty hopeless about the group and even therapy in general. I only had one brief phone session during the break and it wasn't good. So... I was shocked that I felt OK in the group. I shared about a couple of things, and didn't quite get the supportive response I wanted, and stood up for myself a little.. said something to the effect that It's OK if you guys don't get this or think I'm weird but this is my life and I need to talk about it. And it really did feel OK to share and maybe not get all the understanding and support that I wanted.
Then it moved on to another guy who had a miraculous reconciliation with his girlfriend. Everyone was cautious about his prospects but I got all teary about it. The beautiful redemptive powers of human understanding and all that.. it just choked me up. I was just so happy to hear that a broken relationship had been mended.. even if they run into problems again.
So maybe there's hope for the group. The one woman I was not liking, thinking she was not liking me and all that, well I'm trying to give her a chance. She admitted she was feeling judgement toward me and having trouble listening to me because of that. So I wasn't completely nuts to think there's something not clicking between us. I'm just trying to stay open to the possibility that we might eventually connect.
poster:tabitha
thread:297449
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