Posted by zenhussy on December 5, 2003, at 14:39:15
In reply to Flunking Therapy, posted by mair on December 5, 2003, at 14:24:09
> I'm forever amazed by the types of things people on this site discuss with their therapists. I have an enormous aversion to revealing the details of my life and interactions to my therapist. I don't know why - it's a definite barrier to progress.
> Right now I'm incredibly stressed and depressed because I think I may have really screwed something up at work. I can let her know I'm stressed and that I can't go into the details of why with her, but I can't seem to open up more and I can't give her a very cogent explanation as to why I'm so "blocked." I had an awful session yesterday mostly because I spent most of the time trying not to open up to her. Right now Igenerally just feel that I'm losing my grip, and I have no idea of how far down I'm headed.
> I told her that maybe I couldn't tell her stuff because I didn't want her opinion of me lowered. That makes no sense however since I spend most of the time lots of sessions telling her how incompetant and generally "deficient" I am. I just have trouble filling in the details.
> Is this similar to anyone else's experience? Any suggestions as to how I can stop being so blocked?
> MairMair,
EMDR helped me 'unblock' in ways that I never quite understood but am now able to communicate what I couldn't before.
The description of >>I can't go into the details of why with her, but I can't seem to open up more and I can't give her a very cogent explanation as to why I'm so "blocked."<< is so similar with patterns I had in therapy over the years.
The trust issue if this is tied to that is a big ol' knot to untangle.
Otherwise I'm plodding along same ol' same ol'. Progress yes but not at the pace I'd like. Funny how we want to be in control and in charge and understand it all but sometimes letting go can help us take that next step.
the zen hussy
p.s. you are not incompetent or generally deficient in any way, shape or form my dear. Please hear me when I tell you that honestly. ((Mair))
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