Posted by Jellibabe on October 31, 2003, at 5:13:29
In reply to Re: Anyone else live in their dreams?--Jellibabe, posted by Elle2021 on October 31, 2003, at 4:48:51
Oh Elle, will we ever get over this? Will I still be looking for a father figure when I am 70 (assuming I get that far).
It's not as if I want anything bad. I just want him to hug me and to love me, even if it is just a little bit. I want to be able to go for walks with him, talk with him, make him tea and bring it to him with love, tell him a joke and make him laugh, and sometimes have him hold my hand.
Those are not bad things, surely. Just daughterly things.I'm trying not to cut at the moment. So far I have managed. Life just seems to be an endless round of pain and cutting and dreams and more pain . . . just constantly trying to escape the pain with little splashes of sunshine every two weeks when I see him.
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