Posted by Dinah on June 8, 2003, at 15:51:54
In reply to Re: But if I do bad things, aren't I bad? » Dinah, posted by shar on June 8, 2003, at 3:54:02
Hi Shar. My more emotional self focuses a lot on good and bad, and does tend to believe that I'm a good girl if I do good, or a bad girl if I do bad (or make someone angry, or any number of things).
And it's moreso right now. This self correcting world is piling all my corrections on me at once. I ignored my diet and weight and family history of diabetes, and am now paying the price of food choice deprivation. I spent with happy abandon, and now am paying with monetary deprivation that will last at least fifteen years (the life of my debt consolidation loan). I am overcome with my natural consequences and rather obsessed with the idea that it is because I was bad. Because if I had been good, these things wouldn't be happening.
Sigh. I know it's an immature way of looking at things, but I can be quite immature.
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