Posted by FeelingDown on April 29, 2003, at 16:14:55
In reply to Re: Just not me anymore. » nilla, posted by fayeroe on April 29, 2003, at 14:51:58
i'm so glad i've found this site. I've been needing some kind words for a long time now and didn't really know were to look. Thanks so much for your kind words. *hugs back*
I guess the best idea would be to see a doctor about it but to be honest i fear what he may tell me. Like i said there is a history of psychological ilness in my family, i've not had suicidal thoughts or anything but dont doctors have a duty to keep the public safe? I have this fear of being put on drugs and hospitalised or something and then really screwing my head up.
Having said that i am so desperate to sort this out and i think one of the main problems is that I used to be a grade A student that had a mememory like not many others but over the past years because my mind has been so pre-occupied thinking about what people are thinking of me and being depressed and self-centered I cant seem to remember anything. This then leads to me being crap at conversing with others and having once had a wicked sense of humour I only shine every so often and this really gets me down. I know i can be confident again as i have episodes every now and again but when i wake up in the morning feeling crap again having felt great for a few days it really pisses me off frankly. Why cant i just keep it for a few more days???
Do you think that anti-depresants would help this? I think for one if i was happy i would then lose some of the paranoia that really is holding me back from realising my full potential and i'm sure i still have what it takes to form good relationships.
anyway, like i said thanks for all your positive feedback i really appreciate it. Hell i even got a smile on my face as i finish this post!
thanks again. ;)
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