Posted by Alara on February 9, 2003, at 1:34:39
In reply to Re: Did my depression get better? Never mind..., posted by fuzzymind on February 6, 2003, at 15:49:58
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> I did talk to someone a few years ago, and I got angry with her and she with me. Lots of hostility created in my presence wheter it be teachers, professors, deans, fast food employees, library employees. I haven't smiled since grade school, and that smileless, extremely depressed, frozen face creates a lot of hostility in people. I believe even depressed people smile. Weird. Depression is my nature. Too bad there isn't a depression/avoidant personality colony I oculd waste away in.>>>Fuzzymind, do you know that there is a theory which defines depression as anger turned inwards? Maybe the person you are angry with most of all is yourself. That can be really hard to deal with, but it can be overcome. Maybe you could give the therapy another try.
I think that at the moment, you are such a prisoner of your own anger that you can't see any way out. It's easy to believe that things will never change when you are feeling so low - but life can and does change. So instead of putting yourself down with general comments like: "Depression is in my nature", try telling yourself: "I've been struggling with depression for some time but I'm working on it and am going to feel a lot better someday." If you truly persist and are willing to be honest with yourself, you have a very good chance of becoming a happier person. You will probably always struggle with really rotten days (even weeks) and may even continue to need medication, but you can be a lot happier and healthier in the main.
Give it a go. Somewhere in there is a person who deserves to get out.Keep posting. There is a lot of support on this board.
Alara :-)
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