Posted by PuraVida on February 27, 2003, at 1:16:21
In reply to Re: im such a mess? » justyourlaugh, posted by IsoM on February 27, 2003, at 0:41:23
Well, I am in a major funk - one of the worst in a few years. My main goal each day this week is to not be detructive to myself by eating and drinking too much. Other than that I've done nothing - no work, play, laundry, dishes, returning phone calls to friends or family - nothing but existing and trying to get through this. It sucks.
But, however hopeless I think I feel, I have been going through this for at least 8 years, if not a few other times in my life, and I've always pulled through and had some really great periods, too. I know the proper medication helps for sure: I'm hoping what I changed to last week will kick in soon. If things are really bad to where you can't function, I think you have to make sure you have the right meds.
I do know for a fact that there is a light at the end of the tunnel - the fog does lift, and then you won't even remember what it felt like to feel like you do now. I know, its crazy - since if you're like I feel now you can't remember what it felt like to be confident and hopeful and happy. You can't see the light, but you have to believe its there and keep putting one foot in front of the other. One day, the darkness lessens, and for me it seems as it does I can get to that light and out of the tunnel pretty quickly. Until then, though, its baby steps.
It's certainly not hopeless...and, trying to be an optimist myself, I try to remember that some pretty famous people struggled with depression - Abraham Lincoln and Mike Wallace, for example - and Tipper Gore.
Hang on - I wish I knew the secret to what and how and when, but I only know it will get better -
PVG
> Seriously, is there no one who's been through all this & has some words of hope to offer? I refuse to believe anything is completely hopeless. I'm sort of a cynical optismist.
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