Posted by laurarn on January 31, 2003, at 19:48:05
In reply to Re: Frustrated as I can be...laurarn, posted by noa on January 31, 2003, at 18:51:11
Wow. What a difference a day makes. I worked my last day today and was offered an even better position should I ever decide to return.
You know, just for now I need not to be in that stressful place. It doesn't mean I won't ever be able to return as I do enjoy 90% of the work. But for now I am going to take on a similar position but with much less responsibility.
I've thought about this today. I used to be able to cover up the chaos in my life by doing outstanding work. No one has a clue unless they spend much time around me. They know something isn't quite right but I do such good work that they tolerate me.
But, the energy needed to live that way is incredible. In therapy I am looking at some pretty traumatic stuff. I feel that I need to give the therapy part of my life as much effort as I do taking meds. I am realizing how much I dissociate from reality. Today I found a file holder in my trunk that I don't remember buying. Is that too weird? I sort of recall buying it but I was sure I had gotten a different color. Ummm.
Thanks Noa. I did decide not to stress about doing two sessions. I liked Dinah's idea about journaling and then highlighting what I need to bring up in my weekly session. I've decided to spend some time out of each day to write. I'll let you all know how it goes. Thanks for being there!
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