Posted by bookgurl99 on September 10, 2002, at 20:52:33
Ok -- I printed out my first message (from original post, _feeling p***ed off at therapist_) and showed it to my therapist tonight. She took it very seriously, and told me that she has not meant at all to belittle what I'm going through. She said that she believes that I'm having my symptoms, and that she feels frustrated over not knowing what to do about them -- that she feels that she can support me on my anxiety over it and dealing with the associated changes. She feels that I did have a blazing mind before and _have_ obviously lost something, even if neuropsych testing shows me as normal.
She says that she completely supports the efforts I've made to support myself through natural changes (such as visiting a naturopatch to learn about positive dietary changes, exercising regularly, etc.). But, that the reason she at times seems less than enthusiastic about my efforts to see doctors is that every time I go, I return more stressed out because doctors still can't figure out what's going on. She says that it doesn't make sense for me to waste money on medical exams that haven't done a thing for me. But, she did support my seeing a specialist (a neuro-immunologist) who has more experience with the symptoms I'm having.
Once that was out of the way, I felt that I was able to let go of some resentment and really open about. We were able to talk about what I'm going through and how to deal with it at this moment.
So, in the end, I felt quite relieved. I feel that we are on the same page about what I need and that I will still be getting the support I need in the long run.
This was really scary to bring up, and I thought about it for days in advance. I am glad that I printed out the note, because I think it was easier to explain myself in the note than it would have been in person in words.
So, anyone else out there who feels upset with your therapist, I suggest confronting them about it. At least, it paid off for me.
bookgurl99
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