Posted by fleeting flutterby on July 22, 2009, at 10:01:14
In reply to going back to grad school, posted by wildcard2009 on July 15, 2009, at 11:46:47
Just by chance I came by this forum and saw your post. Welcome! sorry it's not very active in this particular forum..... maybe you could also post in "social" or "self-esteem" , that way you will perahps get more replies.
> My first try at grad school, I was basically kicked out. I spent 2 years away, bartending, snowboarding, etc... but now I'm going back for a PhD program in the fall.<<
---flutterby: I find anyone that has gone 4 years of college and finished- awesome in my book! that is a great accomplishment that I hope you are proud of.
>> I have really bad self confidence issues. I feel like I fooled everyone, and really I'm not smart enough to do this. It's almost a feeling of panic & dread. Does anyone else feel this?<<
----flutterby: Oh yes, I am just like that. I didn't finish college and have bounced from job to job to job.... I get panicked and feel dread that I'm fooling people about being a good worker so I quit jobs frequently.
<<I felt this way before I went to my last program, and it's as if it became a self-fulfilling prophesy.<<---flutterby: I've been told --that which one thinks and believes often becomes their reality.
>> I've also had problems with depression in the past, and I'm very shy/don't like meeting people, and have a hard time in class discussion & horrible fear of public speaking. When taken together, I wonder why I am even attempting to go back to school. Any feedback? Should I be on medication?<<
---flutterby: I think you attempt to go because that tiny inner self that believes in you is trying to get you to listen. I'm not a big advocate for drugs-- but maybe just for a bit it would help you, to get off on the right foot. anti-anxiety maybe??
wishing you the best and again-- Welcome! :o)
flutterby-mandy
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