Posted by emily99 on September 17, 2007, at 8:50:05
In reply to Re: Newbie, posted by smilegirl on September 16, 2007, at 20:48:11
Hi there, SmileGirl. I am so glad that you are getting some help from this message board - I am, too. I have a rape and physical abuse in my background, too. I haven't told my story yet, but I can make it brief. These events will be in chronological order: I was molested by a train conductor, I watched my nanny drown when I was four, I was in a serious car accident when I was 12, my mother shot and killed my father when I was 14, I was raped on my 15th birthday and got pregnant (my first sexual experience), I married a very abusive man and he committed suicide when I was 37, my 2nd husband died of cancer (he was the love of my life), my 3rd marriage lasted less than a year, and my oldest son committed suicide three years ago. Now I am on disability and SSI. I used to be a software engineer. Like I mentioned, I have rarely talked about my behavior (more about that later). Now I know it was mostly from undiagnosed bipolar. I have a lot of mind-catching up to do. I have had hallucinations for so many years, and didn't know what they were from until now. I drank heavily for 10 years, and quit a year and a half ago. The BP drugs are helping, but I am still seriously depressed and miss the manic phases. I will be looking for a psychologist soon. You are so lucky to have one that you like, so hang in there and keep going to see her!
Bye for now!
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