Posted by silkworm on November 18, 2006, at 22:19:31
new to babble but not to mental illness.
Started work again about a week ago after 6 months off. I didn't cope well at all..found the demands of nursing in aged care too much. Since quitting the job, I've been sinking fast. Feel so useless...want to work, want to find my own place ( currently staying with my ex...not good).
To make matters worst I've been dumped by my therapist. I will be seeing this therapist in two weeks and will make that my final session. There is still a small possibility that I'm misinterpreting the cues (paranoia), but it's remote. Example: tried to see a GP in the same practise where the psychologist works. They politely told me to go elsewhere.Feeling so depressed..can't be bothered doing much at all. Can't concentrate, just want to sleep the day away. I would probably end it all if I could be bothered. But that would mean finding somewhere for my animals, and I don't have it in me to do that. So suicidal, but not actively. Be very good if I just didn't wake up at all.
Official dx - MDD + borderline traits. Unoffical - social anxiety, possible bipolarity. Current treatment - lithium + mirtazipine
sorry my first post is so depressing. Be really nice to hear that people have been where I am and did re-build a life. Can't see a future at the moment.
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