Posted by Miss Honeychurch on January 5, 2005, at 12:55:13
In reply to Doctors (warning: long!) » Miss Honeychurch, posted by Shortelise on January 5, 2005, at 12:36:46
Shorte,
I like your idea of going to the Doctor piecemeal. Unfortunately, I have a copayment of $35 each time I see the doctor so going to the doctor at a wonderfully leisurely pace is not an option as it would bankrupt me! I suppose you must have free healthcare in Canada which would make that plan much more feasible.
Luckily I have been blessed with great teeth and I do floss quite a bit!
I'm not so freaked out about people touching me as I am by the atmosphere - clinical, paper gowns, SCALES, the stirrups. Even the awful magazines and ubiquitous framed MOnet posters turn me off. If I could have a pap smear in my own living room while watching Entertainment Tonight, that would be heaven.
It usually takes them 4 or 5 times of trying before getting an accurate and normal blood pressure reading on me. I am so anxious when I go in, my bp is sky high, my pulse is sky high. It's ridiculous. I hate seeing the concerned looks on everyone's faces when I show up with all of that going on.
I've been considering going to a dentist that does cleanings, etc. while you're asleep. They have a few of those around. They call themselves "sedation dentists."
The anxiety seems to be threefold here. I worry about seeing doctors and having "procedures" and receiving bad news. I worry about how my behavior is perceived by everyone from the person who weighs me to the doctor. And I worry about worrying about this, knowing the more I worry, the MORE something may be wrong as the more I worry, the sicker I make myself physically.
In short, I'm a mess.
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