Posted by KID_A on March 31, 2007, at 12:08:34
Though this should probably go into the 2000's board, people who would know this person more so than anyone else, I missed 2000 by a year by registering in 2001... A lot of those people are gone, but maybe they check in and post...
There's also this consternation that I'm not quite sure if I'm still registered, or if my password is right, and since this board essentially on the surface hasn't changed too much technically since before 2000... I can't find a login section.
About 5 years ago, this weekend, a very troubled, very dynamic, very special person took it upon themselves (after many previous attempts) to finally shut the door, and never again open it.
Her nickname on the board was SAR, basically her initials... Her name should be remembered by those who remember her... I'll leave it out, for reasons I shouldn't need to explain.
It was April 1 when I last had contact with her, or shortly before that, the night of March 31st / April 1st... We were making plans to move together in Florida, anything is possible, it could have simply been the last ditch idea that might save her from something she didn't know...
A day went by, and no word of her, a few days, and then worry set in, a week or so later we were informed by "A Friend" that yes, she had in fact, committed suicide.
Many didn't believe it, thought it might be a prank, so I contacted the hospitals (they don't release this information), and I contacted her work, whom confirmed it, and the police who asked me questions, and told me information, which I'll leave out, because that's not important any more.
Methods, methodology, what she left behind, notes, all that doesn't matter, but that what she left behind was an immense grief that throughout the years I've been sometimes coping with, sometimes not.
My prayers go to her family, an odd fact that I had learned her sister worked at the same company as my father... If my memory is working this weekend, I'm sure I can get her work email address... We spoke often afterwards, and I built up a friendship with her--- well, what you could call a friendship of necessity... You want to know people who knew your sister, you want to know your friends sister--- what she was like...
I learned a lot about SAR over the relatively little time that we began talking... first emails, then phone calls, the last one, lasted hours, the kind that seemed like everything would be "OKAY".
I don't want to say anything more because frankly, there isn't anything more to say that doesn't hurt so much. There is a section on yahoo about her, linked at the top of this page, a memorial from the time that she passed away... I hope maybe some of you who remember her will take some time to keep her, and selfishly, I, in your thoughts.
Good day.
the (original) kid a.
...no poetry, no misplaced quotes, nothing to cheapen the words, just this.
poster:KID_A
thread:745744
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