Posted by Glydin on January 25, 2007, at 18:13:01
I finally figured it out today....
I don't think I can be a babble anymore. I've taken breaks, gone off in a huff, and had times I thought were "it" only to return. But, this is serious and deeply painful for me.
I lost the closest person to me to suicide 8 1/2 years ago. I will never get over it. I have tried to move on from it. Most days are good....
Years ago, I remember very few detailed posts of active suicide thoughts or attempts or whatever... that has changed. I know these types of posts are allowed and despite efforts maybe to change that, I don't foresee any adm. action forthcoming.
I cannot ignore them. They are too frequent and too much a part of the discussions on the board right now. I can't be at this board at this point in time because I simply cannot tolerate it.
This is painful for me to post but I wanted to voice my pain, whether anyone really hears it or not..... It's painful for me to think about and it is very much about grief. I did not understand triggering until recently.
I'm hurting but hopefully, time without exposure will be helpful for me knowing I can control only my actions and make proactive decisions for myself.
Thanks for reading....
poster:Glydin
thread:726463
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/grief/20051017/msgs/726463.html